It was really difficult for me to look through photos of Grace's first Christmas, to choose one to put into this post, without getting sad. When I look at this photo I see a young, first-time mom who is trying to pretend that she's okay (but who is really crying and screaming for help on the inside). I was just barely holding things together when this photo was taken... Grace was seven weeks old in this photo and I had been struggling with postpartum depression for weeks when